...but the fire is not so delightfully lit.
But no matter. With the cold front upon us here in Washington, D.C., I am so glad I will be flying out to India tomorrow morning. Oh, that’s right. I am no longer going. Shit. So glad I got those vaccinations last month. Looks like someone will be looking for another lovely locale where he can potentially catch Hep A, Hep B, Typhoid, Tetanus, and, keeping my fingers crossed, Malaria. That should give me some options, I think.
The good news here in D.C. is that the temperature will be rising through the weekend. The bad news is that I have to deal with the reality of life here instead of escaping to 80-plus degree weather with the woman I love.
The main purpose of the trip was so she could be a bridesmaid for her very good friend's wedding. Bracketing the wedding in Chennai was some traipsing through Delhi and a island adventure in Andaman. And less than 3 weeks before this escape we broke up. Poor timing.
Jane and I were great together, but our life rhythms were off. And the new experience of vulnerability made me act...a wee bit unhinged. And she did not know how to do balance, or relationships for that matter. Well, neither did I, apparently. So, not exactly a recipe for a healthy partnership. But the love was there, and the passion. Just not the timing. Again with the timing!
I thought it was small beans, that we could align our rhythms. Jane did not feel she had the cycles to work on that alignment. Time and timing. Why are people so consumed with it?
So, back to the reality of DC, which includes packing up my house in preparation for sale, finding an apartment, moving, finalizing my divorce, and looking at a new career path. All within the next few months. All the while coming to terms with the end of a relationship. Child's play, you say? I think not.
I am not normally one to drop verse from the bible, this 1 Corinthians 13:11 number seems fitting. Until next time.
"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things."